Dear Diary,
Sorry I haven't written a post in so long...
I guess a part of me wanted this blog to be all about positivity and spreading positivity. And to be quite honest, I don't think I've been feeling 100% lately.
I know that this year, there will be many times when I will become an emotional mess. Last year of high school - and from now until I graduate the examinations and assessments won't stop. I don't tend to look stressed out like all the other students when it comes to exam time. I am that person that bottles everything up and just seems 'genuinely' happy all of the time. I am that person that 'runs away' from my problems, and I know very clearly that that doesn't fix anything. Instead of studying, I feel so screwed, so scared of failure, that I end up watching movies or sleeping to take my mind of everything. I've been sleeping 9-13 hours lately because I'm just so confused with everything, I'd rather just shut my thoughts up. Of course, I know that's not what I'm meant to do. It's like I know what I'm meant to be doing, but I just can't bring myself to do it.
I took the whole day off today so that I could start and finish my oral presentation preparation (for my assessment on Thursday), but I become so fixated on wanting every single word to be perfect. This is not good enough. This sounds bad. This is worst than what I wrote last time. Can I give up? No, you can't give up. I have this internal conflict with myself...
I'M WASTING TIME...
Sorry for not posting anything in a while. Perhaps no one actually follows my blog and maybe the view only comes from people stumbling across my posts. But regardless, thank you.
On a brighter note, I do have a few posts which I want to upload. Maybe after my exams. I've been meaning to make a post on my first impressions of some new goodies (make up + clothing items) - so that will be exciting. AND I have a two week break after my exams, so I'll definitely be making more posts then.
Love,
The Miss Diaries
