LIFE IS CONSTANT?

Dear Diary,

25.02.14

This post probably won't make much sense as I wrote it during my 15 minute break at work. It was a long day and I wasn't feeling too happy about anything. So, I decided to write a little bit about how I was feeling to make me feel a little better.

I'm here to let you know what you already know. Sometimes, it's alright to feel confused, lonely, sad and angry. It's perfectly okay for you to express your emotions. Someone will listen, because someone does care.

And if you ever need a person to talk and listen to you, or someone to give you advice, I'll be more than happy to help you out. Just shoot me an email at themissdiaries@gmail.com and I'll do my best to help you! Love ya! I mean it.

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21.02.15

The hustle and bustle of the world...

I sit on the sofa and lean my head backwards to rest my head. All I can hear are the echoes of people working, people talking and dishes clattering together. Can I remain this way forever? To be able to hear the distant murmur of craziness of the world and not have to do anything about it?

I close my eyes -  a hundred thoughts running through my mind. What do I have to tomorrow? The exam? Do I have anything that needs to be completed by next week? Or next month? The mind is constantly reminding me of all the worries I have to deal with. But then it refuses to co-operate. Refuses to help me out. I feel like giving up. If only.

You. Your constant nagging next to my ear. Thank you for making it no better. You blame me for so many things. But it's not my fault. Though, I'm not up for an argument. So, say sorry. Smile. And walk away.

Can't I wear my bathers and float in the swimming pool, look up at the cloudless, blue sky above me and the close my eyes in peace? And for a single moment, can I just forget about everything? For a single second, can we just escape the world?

As humans, we remain on our own roller-coasters. And no, the ride doesn't end (perhaps only when we die, but I don't know). The roller-coaster is a constant up and down. And let me remind you, you have no control on how fast and in which direction the roller-coaster goes. It does whatever it want to. Your job is to just deal with it.

You may not have control over everything, but you can control how you feel about the situation. And you decide on what your next move is.


Love,
The Miss Diaries.

EXPOSED ft. Erica

Dear Diary,

19.02.15

Like I mentioned in my first post - I plan on writing about everything and anything. I have decided to start a new series on my blog called "Exposed". In this series, I feature a friend on my blog and ask them to write anything they want! It could be a little bit about what they think of me, their favourite memory of us, and something a little meaningful (advice - not to me but about life in general, life morals, etc.) they wish to share. I have decided to called this series Exposed because my friends play a huge part in my life, and perhaps sometimes, they know more about me than I do. So not only am I sharing the very fine details of my life with you guys, but my friends are also helping me learn more about who I am and where I stand in life. 

Love,

The Miss Diaries

ERICA IS GOING TO TAKE OVER NOW! BYE! ;)

Erica and I at our Year 11 Informal - good times...

20.02.15

Without too much cheese I'll write this in the most simplest and deepest manner. 

Friends come and go and of course after high school, we all go our separate ways. As much as I want to say, WE R FWENDZ 4LYFE, its something that I have no control over. 

On another page, this bunch of people that I see everyday (5 school days) have suddenly become a part of my life, especially this chapter and that's one thing that would never change. 

Yes we have uni and yes it will all be different and yes we will eventually find new friends to hang out but of course I would never be able to experience this great friendship again. 

I enjoy moments where we look at each other and go 'yep yep yep gotcha' as if telepathy actually exists!

I enjoy the moments of Mr A, B , C , D, E, HAHA and more as we become great stalkers. 

I enjoy the moments in class. Especially biology and prac work.

I enjoy the laughing that I share with you and the others. Just cos we weird. 

I enjoy that camp night. Along with a few other ppl, I enjoy talking about feelings that should be shared only when necessary haha. 

There are simply too many moments that I could've missed but funnily enough the one I'm most fond of is our last camp together, bush walking. That track was the deadliest and I'm sure you have the worst memories there hahah but at that time I knew I couldn't leave you alone and dramatic as it sounds I was happy we made it out alive (even tho I was no help. Thanks AH). 

This is not the end. Trust. We have a vacation afterwards just for the soulmates xoxo

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What can I say. 

I wouldn't say this is MY favorite memory/moment but it could be hers (who knows hahah :P) 

But if I remember correctly in our early junior years at hs, having to face the utterly MOST difficult situation ever was having to choose between who to sit. And yes, at that age, I was struggling to make the "right" decisions because honestly pleasing two people is harder than you think. You could easily tell who stayed by my side ("or won") HAHAHAHA and I guess that was one of the moments that I'll remember and cherish forever. How one childish giggling over the table moving can lead us to where we are now.. Buddies who have countless of baes. I have one. She has more. (That's right. I said it. Choose one pls HAHA)  
There are many things I could say, but I'll end it here or else I'll have nothing else to say in my letter geez. But, I'm sorry and thank you. I'll leave it as that for her to think about why

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"Sometimes no matter how hard i try, some things hold me back from moving on. A lingering moment, the false hope and i fall back a few steps."

I blame the mind. The mind constantly filled with unrealistic thoughts that yes, maybe one day, it'll be the same again. So many unanswered questions start to pile up and then you ask yourself the most trivial yet important question. Why?
Blaming yourself as if you had any control over it and blaming them for not treating the situation differently.

But, 'if only' comes into play.
If only this. If only that.

And, 'what if.'
What if this. What if that.

Stop lingering and move on, she said.
Don't worry, it's just a phase, he said.

What a jerk.

I forgave this jerk. 

DOUBLE REVIEW - KINGSMAN: THE SECRET SERVICE & HOT STAR FRIED CHICKEN

Dear Diary,

18.02.15

I only had three periods of school today (yay!) which means that I finished school at 12pm. THAT MEANS that I have the opportunity to run around and go out (jokes... once in a blue moon). I went with Thuy, Laura and Maria - we bought our $1 Large Frozen Cokes from McDonald's and quickly made our way to the movie theatres. We bought a large box of popcorn ($8.80 between the four of us & we didn't even finish it!)
Coincidentally, we ran into Steven and Tony in the movie theatres and we all happily watched the movie together.

Movie Review (Kingsman: The Secret Service):
I am no professional when it comes to writing reviews, so I'm going to keep this short, sweet and simple. Overall, it was a really good movie (thanks Rotten Tomatoes for heading me into the right direction). It had the perfect amount of seriousness, action and humour to keep you entertained. I'm no graphic designer or movie director, but as a viewer, the movie looked really low budget. The special effects (explosion, blood, etc.) looked incredibly fake. Now, don't get me wrong. I (and all of my friends agreed) said that they must've used their low-budget to their advantage, because the bad special effects made the movie incredibly funny. We all sat there laughing for 15 minutes straight. Ugh, I want to talk about the movie so badly, but I don't want to spoil it. The movie does provide some advice to viewers, like loyalty and teamwork. It has a few sexual references here and there (probably justifying the MA 15+), and a few unexpected scenes that have you sitting in your seat completely mind-blown. In fact, in some parts of the movies, I was covering my eyes with my hands and peaking through my fingers because it was just so intense. I don't particularly like action movies (sorry!) because I find them boring, but this action-comedy movie is definitely worth a shot! Super funny, and would definitely recommend! (I can't say enough good things about it!!)

Diary Ratings: 8/10 (It was pretty amazing, but I've seen better movies.)

Food Review (Hot Star Fried Chicken):
Man, I have a lot to say about this. I'm well aware that I'm super late in trying this out but anyways I bought a piece of fried chicken (spicy) for $8. I personally think you get enough bang for your buck (worth it). The piece of chicken is unbelievably big. It's called "Large Fried Chicken"... what was I expecting? I dropped by my workplace to share it with my friends because I was going to die if I finished the whole thing myself. Thuy and Maria have tried this place many times before (they've previously tried the Medium Spicy and the Extra Spicy) and yet they couldn't handle the spicy level this time round! STRANGE! I guess it really depends on how much chilli powder they shake onto your chicken, considering they could eat extra-spicy last time. They have different levels of spiciness for you to choose from, by the way. I would say I'm actually not that bad in handling spicy food, but I was literally dying. I was choking every 5 seconds and crying the whole way through. I know it sounds like an exaggeration, but I think I'm actually making the scene sound better than what it actually was. Thuy and Maria were cracking up so much the whole entire time while watching me eat (they were also crying because it was so chilli). I want to (or do i?) try out the Original next time. My other coworkers came by and I could barely say hi because my tongue, lips, and throat (basically whole mouth) felt like it was on fire. On the bright side though, the piece of chicken was very juicy and tender, and the coating was very crunchy. Fabulous fried chicken - perhaps I just didn't choose the right level of spiciness. Will not be paying a visit anytime soon because I'm still traumatised, but maybe in the far, far future, I want to give Hot Star a second chance.

Diary Ratings: 5/10 (due to it being too spicy... probably my fault though)

Overall, it was a good day, even though I'm still trying to recover from my food coma. I feel like this is the perfect time to roll into bed, snuggle with my blanket and go into deep sleep. Unfortunately, I have overdue English homework I still need to complete and submit! So sleep will have to wait...

Love,
The Miss Diaries.

SEVENTEEN

Dear Diary,

This is my first post, so please don't be too harsh on me. I don't plan on doing anything fancy with this blog to be quite honest. I will probably end up posting about everything and anything - and at random times as well. Perhaps one day, when people find this blog, I will try to make entries more regularly.

Now time to get this party started ;)

13.02.15

I turned 17 yesterday. A day I thought would never come. Time really does fly very fast. I remember primary school like it was yesterday, and here I am... halfway through my last year of high school. 

The morning started off with me finding a piece of paper stuck to my bookshelf which said "17 Happy Birthday Daughter. I Love You. Fr: Daddy" How cute. What a way to start the day. (and the reason it was on paper is because my dad works night shifts and so I don't see him too often)

I got to the train station at around 7:45 and spotted Maria sitting at the train station. WHAAAT?? She never comes early. She's always late. Hmm.. how fishy. Once I got to the platform, I could see that she was in a rush to get onto the train, but of course she couldn't just say "Hey you. I'm going to catch this train. You stay here by yourself." Nonetheless, we both hopped onto the train together. We got off our stop and headed towards a nearby cafe to get ourselves some morning pick-me-ups. Mocha, my favourite. We then headed off to the bakery to grab Maria some lunch. I looked at my phone and realised I have 2 text messages and 1 missed call from Jenny, asking me where I was. Ahh, I was starting to catch on to what was going on - but you know, never get ahead of yourself in case it leaves you feeling empty and disappointed. 

I walked into the main quad of my school and I spotted MY WHOLE GROUP (Jenny U, Cindy L, Cindy N, Celeste, Thuy, Maria, Tanya, minus Erica) standing at the table with 6 heart-shaped balloons stuck to the table, a bunch of roses, a gift bag, and a huge helium balloon that said "Birthday Girl". Geez, Louise. I knew where this was going now for sure. The reason I emphasised my whole group being present was because I'm usually one of the first few people to be at school since I always catch the earlier train to school (so lonely at times). I spent my whole day dragging the presents I received around. I laughed a lot and also took many photos. Not to mention, one of the presents were redeemable vouchers (e.g. voucher for a dinner date, movie date, etc.) I sincerely thank my friends for showing me so much love. I truly felt special, and I don't deserve a single thing they did for me. And I also thank them for catching my heart balloons which kept flying away. I ended up getting two extra single roses and two singagrams (Lucky and Anaconda) for early Valentine's Day celebrations at school.

After school, I was keen on getting myself an annual (free) Chatime Birthday Drink. (yes, children. become a member). I got Thuy to come with me (such a sweetheart). I usually only get the Passionfruit Green Tea or the Matcha Green Tea Latte, but I decided to try something new. So, I got myself a large Thai Milk Tea with Pearls (it was very yum btw) and Thuy chose herself a Coffee Smoothie (which she said was delicious - I'll have to give that a shot one day). Thuy drove me home that afternoon (well, her dad did) and again, I'm so grateful and apologetic at the same time.

Once I arrived home, my mum asked me what I wanted to eat for dinner. She ended up driving with Quang to buy some food from Chinese Seafood Restaurant, Vinh Phat. And then, she fried some rice as well. It was definitely a scrumptious dinner.

I prepared myself for bed and replied to Facebook and text messages from people who sent me birthday wishes. I ended up talking to Andy from midnight to 1am because he sent me a birthday paragraph- it was a nice talk though :) 

I truly felt special on my birthday.

14.02.15

HAPPY VALENTINE'S MY LOVES.

I had a 6 hour shift at work today. 9am-3pm. So I woke up at 7am, meaning I got 6 hours of sleep (or less). Customers will be customers. Some really piss you off, and some make your day. Hit and miss, I guess. Either way, they are providing money to the business, which means they're providing you with your income. So if you hate them, bite your tongue and deal with it. I got really tired, and (for those who work in customer service, you can somewhat relate right??) smiling becomes a part of the job. It's super, super fake. You smile because you have to, not because you want to. But thank you to the customer who worked at a bank and asked me about my day and had a little chat with me about my high school life. Thank you to the nice customers who seemed to appreciate what I do and smiled. Honestly, a smile from them lifts a little weight off your shoulders. 

3pm finally came after what felt like 20 thousand years. My friends, my Valentine dates; Laura, Andy, Trixia, Jenny and Felicia came to my workplace and together, we headed off to What The Fudge to eat. We ordered: Golden Gaytime fried ice cream, Green Tea fried ice cream, Salted Caramel fried ice cream, Nutella Heaven Waffles with Vanilla ice cream and Cheesy Fries. You can never, ever have enough ice cream. Everything was delicious might I add. The total was $63 for the 6 of us, which meant $10.50 each. SO, SO worth it!! They gave me my birthday present (ngaw, such sweethearts). I love you all (including Theresa who couldn't make the date). They gifted me with T2 Two Pack - Green, a purple travel flask from T2 tea and also the Kora Organics Exfoliating Cream (hmm.. perhaps I'll make a post on my fave skincare products). And to recap, I absolutely adore the gifts. 

THANKS EVERYONE FOR EVERYTHING!!

Love,
The Miss Diaries.